When I was young, probably about age 8, I was determined to be a successful career woman. I told myself that I wasn't going to even get married or even have any children. My idol at that age, surprisingly was this person, Katherine Hepburn.
I wanted to be like her, bold, independent, strong, and certainly a career woman that Katherine Hepburn was. She didn't have children, or a husband, which gave me that idea that if she didn't have any of those, then I will be happy and successful like her too! In most of her movies, she played strong characters. She always ended up with the hero in the movie. I'm sure there are many women who make that decision and are indeed happy.
Fast forward to the present time, and I am sitting here in a house full of beautiful children. Here they are today:
Aren't they beautiful? They are really good children too! I know Heavenly Father blessed me with good, happy little ones because he must have known that I really needed support. You see, my husband is away often, working overseas to help rebuild a country and keep it safe. It can be very lonely for me if I let it take control.I have to stay positive and not think about myself often. Because that's when I start to feel sorry for myself, and that wouldn't do any good. Life is too short. While he is away, my children help me feel bold, independent, strong, and help me around the house. I've had to change my plans a bit, but I'm proud to say that I am making it work.
I recently achieved # 5 Top Recruiter status for Close To My Heart, the scrapbooking company I represent. I have to admit that I was pretty upset when I found out. I was aiming for #1 and this year it didn't happen for me. Yes, I know that I have been at the top for the last 7 years, but I have been working with a lot of obstacles the past few years and sometimes those obstacles were put in front of me out of spite and jealousy. And I don't have any bad things to say about anyone. But this moment gave me a bit of self reflection and personal meaning. I could have no children, no husband and be the successful career woman I would like to be. Achieve # 1 Top Recruiter for the next 10 years and would I still be happy?
I don't think I would have done it differently. I don't regret my decision to put career plans on temporary hold for my children. Because they grow up so fast, right? My time will come when I can pursue my dreams fully. I just need to have patience.